I Am Growing Up....

It hasn't even been a full month since the New Year began. But, I have grown up since Christmas.

The first thing that made me realize I was growing up was my Secondary Education class. This is the first class any teaching major has to take - half is on campus, learning different methods and styles of teaching, while the other half is taking notes and watching different teachers from different grade levels in the classroom. Earlier this month, we were in 5th and 6th grade classes, now we are in 8th and 9th grade, and in the beginning of February, we will be going to high schools. These children are so young - I was in 8th grade seven years ago! It amazes me. But not only the age difference. Talking to the teachers, reality was shoved in our faces - teachers have a hard life. These children need our love, they need our support, they need our help. My naivety was pushed away as the truth shoved its way in.

Second - of the four of us that live in our apartment, Katrina is the first to turn 20 in two days. I am second, in mid-February. The apartment complex we live in, we are actually a few of the youngest ones, the average age being 22. But, to me, 20 is a big age, its a big and major birthday. No longer will I be a teenager - I will an adult.

Third - my personality has went through some changes. I accept things more, and let bygones be bygones. I feel more laid back and relaxed. I lost my iPod earlier this week on campus, and no one has turned it into the lost and found yet. I admit, I spent all of 5 minutes crying in the bathroom, then wiped my eyes off and asked myself, "What is crying going to do to help the situation?" Sure, I am still dissapointed and sad, but life is life, the only way to march is foward.

The past few months, eveything I have experienced, everything I have written in this blog, just gives me more hope for the future. My way is made clearer to me, while at the same time, it opens more widely and divides into numerous forks. I realize that these years are the crucial ones in life. They are the one which gives you shape for the rest of your life. And, I am glad to report, I am pretty sure I will like how it all turns out.