Breaking Out and Begging to Be Let In

I am proud to say, I am breaking out of my shell.

Quiet, follower, agreeable, comfortable at a distance. That's how I used to be. My clothes matched, no unconventionals.

Lately, I've been breaking out of my shell, showing my childish side, my creative side, my joking, lighter hearted side. I've become more comfortable with people and how I act around people. I'm more playful, more extroverted, more willing to embarass myself in front of others.

Fashion freaked me. Mismatched colors, standing out, mixing styles and textures, chic vogue with newest fashion...I don't have a big wardrobe. I don't have a varied wardrobe. But, lately, I have been experimenting, trying to emulate the fashions I see on campus. Right now I am wearing a knee-length green plaid skirt with grey leggings, but I have greyish-black star knee high socks over them, black flats, black shirt, with a green jewel-toned scarf. I look adorable. I fit right in. I look at two of my roommates' wardrobes and try to imitate them.

However...

Today, while at work, I watched as our campus's medieval reenactment club did a photo shoot in the courtyard. Silly them, I thought. (I'm a geek when it comes to medieval history, but not enough to join them.) Then I turned back to my computer and caught a link of my roommate's blog. I never looked at her blog. She and a friend keep a photo-shooting blog. They look adorable.

I have always hated getting pictures of myself. I hate photshoots. I'm not model-pretty and I feel awkward acting as if I was. There are very few photos of me that I like.

But, now that I think of it, I really want to be part of a photo shoot. I want to show my newly discovered confidence. I want to show my face.

Also, I think I will become more creative in my blog posts (content and layout) and possibly add more pictures...maybe even pictures of me!