Wedding Dresses and New Year's

I have to admit - I'm a hopeless romantic. Deep at heart, I love it all - romance, weddings, the thought of family. Therefore, my roommate has got me addicted. She has a brother who is about to get married, so while looking for a bridesmaid dress for the past year, she has also looked at wedding dresses for the fun of it. I went with her on one of these expeditions and have been caught in the net. I enjoy looking at wedding dresses on the internet. I have no boyfriend, nor am rushing to get married - I just love the gorgeous dresses.

I was flipping through images of different dresses today and started thinking of marriage. Like I said, I'm in no rush, I'm not anxious. But, when you are a Mormon college student and all your friends and their siblings are getting married left and right, it's kind of hard not to think of any thing else. I enjoy romanticizing this. I enjoy thinking of my future - what will my husband be like? What kind of place will we live in? How will we decorate it? Where will we live? What will our children be like? Our lives? Our adventures? What will I be like?

This led to an even more important question. I look in the mirror - am I who I want to be for my husband, whenever that time may come?

Over the past couple of years, I have worked on improving my appearance - I have learned how to put on makeup, do my hair, and what type of clothes look good on me, as well as get in good shape. I have studied hard and achieved much in school. But am I where I want to be for the rest of myself? No. Not even close.

It is close to New Year's and I have spent alot of time thinking on what I want my resolutions to be. I've decided. I want to improve myself even more - not only for me, but for my future husband and family (which I guess circles back to me). I am OCD in the fact that I can't make or write about resolutions until New Year's Eve itself, but I am prepping myself. I want to work on myself so that when the time does come, I will be proud of who I am and how he sees me.

(Be looking for my resolutions on New Year's Eve!)